just some seconds ago i desided to sighn out of face book and come here and ...listen the song i am listening on the screen


you know ! I am sure ; that love is not ganna have any result

just wastes my golden time and doesnt let me see what is better and what is the worst :(


god please help and guide me
i dont have any thing to say

just some seconds ago i read her last 3 posts ! 3 sequence posts after a long time of silence:)

she is still hasppy cause she is enjoying life by the presense of a pretty kind sis, boy friend and....

but i am not jelous of her!

cause i have promised to my god not to be envious of any one else any more

cause i know that woruld ruin my life as the first victim

i have my sis, my family

my children and that's enough till the end of the vale!

I can clearly remember ; once your sister in your comment box claimed when you were borned your were too ugly, that your father ( Or your grand father) * refused to hug you !


OH! what a pitty!
after having seen your latest profile pic, I just wanted to tell that gentle man where is he right now to see how much that ugly nasty infant has brilliantly turned out to an appealing cute smacking well educated 31 year old guy?

who is the honour of his family an his hometown(yazd) and his citizens As well !

*: I coundnt totally recognize the correct translatetion of that word

even I dont have anyone to roast a potato for me



tonight/ a very cold night :(



colder than tonight is my heart :((

still it's cold in my room and colder in my heart , while i am looking at my friend's new couple hood 's pics


she is 21 , just 2 years younger than me but she has wearing her wedding ring on her ring finger since 8 months ago ...
that 's a shame on me !
lonely with no specific programme for future :((


as i come to my own room, as I run the song in order to calm my self down :( , it seems to be rediculous to me m cuz I have no dream to go on with :(

nothing related to medicane course, nothhing to mechanical " , nothing to USA " .

nothing to nothing :(((

just listening to celin dion's 1998 albume" let's talk about love "
specially " let's talk about love " track :(

feel pitty for my self that I can't even cry with
it's not enjoyable to surf on Facebook anymore:(
when you write something on your wall and people kid your or at least mis understand you :( what would be attractive to make you connected to there anymore?

every one has a suitor and I? ....


:(((

there is an iranian poem by Attar:

Attar has travelled all cities of love (figurative)
whereas we are just stopping in the first alley ( of love's city)

Hey helal !

you must get this fact that falling in love with a boy who has never seen you any time , just via some msgs through the net is not a logical love !

you should belive that in this way the only one who will be hurt is you yourself !

be sure that he is enjoying his life in the best way with nice situation he's got in boston ( of course this situation has been gained by his endless efforts = as you know thoroughly!)

may be he has got his own dear beloved and maybe he is going to hold his wedding party in some months.

so ! please please please ! try not to follow silly dreams which may never can come true!

i am devastated again :((

I have 3 different weblogs ; 2to in my own language and one in english
I have several daily notes
I can write in my mobile phone 's note and my computer 's note file ( word)
but still I fell alone ... :(

I dont know this terrible mood is because of my next menstruation or not but what ever it is ,
is terrible!
i feel sad,
i fear my future. if i stay alone
if i can not mu soul mate
if ...
if....



i am jelous of sh!
i am jelous of monire
i am jelous of sadegh


i am jelous of that girl who is or even will sit on mra 's knees! :((

i sorry for my loneliness
i wish i was more happy, jouful,festive

i wish i could go to united state
i wish i could find my half missing
i wish i coulsd calm down my silence
i wish i could be more intrested in lesson, study, lecture

i wish i was not human being
i wash i were a butterfly
i wish i were a lady bird
to sit on a child 's finger and make her interested to myself !
something that i cant do about the rest