my darkest days of life

I think it's so far for me to have a man who loves me!


it's so far to have a man who says to me, helal! i love you


it's so far for me to have a man to tell him , hey , guyyyyyy, i love you


" to take gift from him

' that cuddle me!


oh my god


will it ever happen to me?

i see it sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo far!

unfortunately


no boy
no man

my heart is really broken :(

my Emergencies!

The things which i really really need! :


1- a computer chair (a perfect ont high tech one!)

2-a computer desk "

3-a cell phone( prefereably NOKIA but sonyerricson is possible too!)

4-a laptop ( it must be sony (wiao) or Dell)

5-a photo camre (it must be canon)

6- and a diamond necklace !!!!

I should change

how can I change my all self?


how can i transform to a new girl without any of my previous disgusting propertis , talents :D and abilities


i waana get a new personality

big anticipation ♥

when are you going to come to my world and change my sadness to happiness?


Hannnnnn?



when will you put and end to my anticipation? when?
i am getting exhausted :(


My these days song

a continuous process for me and a pleasant change for them

Oh my god!
This is the first ramazan that he goes out with his new bride to all the eftaris they have been invited.



And still I have to break my fast lonely! …like last year and last year of last year and so on!

when?...

i wish i go on hoyemoon with my kind husband to Dubai
and sit in a car which has driver
put my hand in his hand
listen to the music and just tour the city
tour Dubai
non stop for several hours

then when it is 11 pm
tell my driver to get us to the hotel
directly gi to the restaurant and ret my delicous dinner infront of my love's face!
when is it going to become possible?

waiting for permission

I want to go camping with them!
but the problem is that mad dad doesnt permit


I want to make a new experience but he doesnt ,i dont know what to do

How and How....

I am definetely eager to know


how he caresses her
how he kisses her
how he hugs her
how he sings for her
how he loves her
how he looks up to her
how he calls her
how he shows all his emotion which he collected for his wife to her
how he goes out with her
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How?

contrast

he he

when some seconds ago I read my last post's title and compared it with some posts before with a similar title which were all about my dreams , I found my poilcy in this blog is not what i have planned

if you consider my blog's name ,then compare it to the titles , you will get the trichy item


ha ha! how far the " the route to catch the AIMS '' and "my dreams..." are apart?

I am not safe in my previous blog any more
I have dout A reads it or not
and there are some silent visitors withought any comment but their presence teases me
so i have to change my career
may be that's the only way i can solve my problem


oh
shitttttttttt
when i have to think and write simultanously in english , i forget what i wanted to say

and mow i have forgotten what i planned to write
ah